Chapter 2. The Beginning.

I have always been thinking about my dream. I used to imagine myself in the place of many famous singers and show-women and when I did so, my heart would start beating like crazy from happiness and I would feel a pleasant warmth flowing all over my body. Later I realized that this was that inner attraction to my own way, which I couldn’t fight at the moment. And also this accident which has changed everything…
At first I was feeling really bad inside, I was depressed and desperate, didn’t see a way out and all this was making me crazy. I didn’t want to do anything, couldn’t think about anything, and envied any success of others… Shortly, I brought myself to the edge. It’s an awful state when you can’t pull yourself together. It’s so ugly and disgusting and the one starts hating oneself for weakness and for getting lost in searches of one’s own way!
In such difficult moments those who are close to you help a lot! I’m really happy that that time near to me was a very dear and close person, who saw my depression and didn’t dismiss it but supported me. I opened myself to him completely in one conversation and it was enough. I said that had been always dreaming about the stage and was always willing to sing and got an answer which could be reduced to: “Why not? Act!” After this exciting night talk everything has started…